Have you ever looked at your life and wondered how you ended up there? I have. Sixteen year old Amy was never going to marry or have children. Three years later, she was married. Twenty-two year old Amy might have children, but would always be a career woman and never condescend to be “just a stay-at-home mom.” But, as I bathed my two babies tonight and read them books after a long day of nothing much but playing with, teaching, and discipling them, I couldn’t help but roll my eyes at my own foolish attitudes about what I was going to do with my life.
Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, the new creation has come: The old has gone, the new is here! – 2 Cor. 5:17 NIV
When we receive Christ into our hearts, we become something entirely different than we were. I did not fully understand this concept until I examined what it was that made me different. I have the same personality and interests as before my salvation experience. The difference is in my definition of myself and of the world. I no longer see my life as my life, but God’s. I see the world as His creation which He is desperate to redeem. Because of that, I do not live according to my purposes; instead, I seek to listen to His voice, revealed in His Word or by the Holy Spirit, and I obey it. This new life means that, more often than not, I do things which my B.C. self would not imagine, attempt, or comprehend.
I realize as I write this now that it sounds unnatural – it goes against our innate (or perhaps Americanized) sense of independence, particularly as women and mothers of the post-feminist generation. The Kingdom of God, however, is quite an upside-down thing when compared to our ways of thinking. God knows best, truly. He knows what we are designed to be before we know it, and when we obey His leading, we become the truest and best versions of ourselves. I would not trade my life today for the one I wanted at sixteen, or even the one I wanted at twenty-six. It is always a challenge to obey when God calls me to change my plans, but I have seen enough evidence of the blessings of His plans for me to trust His judgment over my own. And that submission has indeed made me a new creation.