Social networking has made me an addict of social approval. And if that wasn’t bad enough, it’s instant social approval I seek. It’s a vicious cycle:
Check back in ten minutes for “likes” and comments.
Get disappointed if there aren’t any.
Begin to feel like an idiot for not being clever or interesting enough.
Begin to feel like a bigger idiot for getting upset over something so trivial.
Protest status updating in an effort to control myself.
Update blog in the meantime.
Check blog the next day for number of views (so conveniently put onto a line graph so I can watch it drag at zero day after day).
Get disappointed when there aren’t many views.
Begin to feel like an idiot for sharing my thoughts.
Begin to feel like a bigger idiot for being so concerned with notoriety.
Return to overused social network for comfort.
This has to stop.
But first, I have to post this and see if anyone reads it.