Before I reveal my 2019 Word of the Year, let me recap 2018’s word. My word for 2018 was “Free.” You can read all about it here. As for how accurate it was, well…
Halfway through the year I erased the word and scripture from the picture frame where I had written them. I was frustrated. “Why, God?! Isn’t freedom supposed to be my theme this year? Aren’t I supposed to be experiencing new levels of freedom? Why am I feeling bound again under a yoke of slavery?”
Sometimes God doesn’t just hand us a win. We have to fight for it.
Somewhere along the way, Jason told me I should rewrite my word and scripture. He said the year wasn’t over; God is faithful, and our job is to stand firm.
It took eleven months to get there, but I can say that breakthrough happened. I am experiencing a level of freedom today that I have not known my entire Christian life. It has been a learned and earned freedom, for which I am glad to have fought.
As I look ahead to 2019, I am expecting a learning experience. Beyond a theme, I know I am in for testing, growing, and understanding with the topic. And this new word is speaking to me already, convicting me in areas which are the opposite by nature.
The word is “Open.”
I was thinking the other day about the upcoming year, and before I could get the sentence out in my thoughts, this word dropped on me. Often, when Holy Spirit is speaking to me, His voice interrupts my thoughts faster than I could have conjured it up on my own. As always, I set the word on the shelf of my mind to let it wait. I prayed for confirmation or redirection if needed. But the word remained.
I began to do a word study through scripture and found four verses, all from The Psalms, which speak of openness.
“Open my eyes that I may see wonderful things in your law.”
Psalm 119:18 NIV
This is my daily prayer: that I will be cognizant of His goodness in everything. I pray my eyes will be fixed on His will and His ways.
“All my longings lie open before you, Lord; my sighing is not hidden from you.”
Psalm 38:9 NIV
This verse regards an open heart. Nothing in me is hidden from the Lord, even my struggles and heartaches.
“You open your hand and satisfy the desires of every living thing.”
Psalm 145:16 NIV
The Lord is my provider and supplier. If He is generous to me, I must live with open hands to others as well.
“Open my lips, Lord, and my mouth will declare your praise.”
Psalm 51:15 NIV
This verse reminds me that I must rely on real, active praise as both my duty to God and my weapon of spiritual warfare.
Openness does not come easily to me. I am by nature a private, introverted person. But I know God is about to push me out of my comfort zone and teach me things about myself, and about Himself. I am ready.